I've been feeling some stress lately. I've been a little tearful and down. Yes, there have been some things going on. But I think most of all, I miss sharing those things with Grandma. Whenever something happens good or bad, the first person I want to call is Grandma! Without her, I feel so alone. I feel like a part of me is missing. She and Grandpa were my mentors. I looked up to them and they were role models for me. They encouraged me as I lost hope in marriage, as I struggled through grad school as a single mom, as I felt the stress of having to let go of my little girl when she went away with her dad. But now, I don't have that person to call, who always knows what to say, who has time for me and loves me like no other. I have no one call for spiritual guidance. As a few stressful events have occurred this last week, I found myself feeling very alone. Even though I did share my heart with people, none could replace Grandma. I am at a loss…
I know she is in a better place. I know she get's to be with Grandpa again, and I know I will see her again one day in heaven. But what about now? What about those times when I really need her? What shall I do without her to call upon? There is a missing piece.
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