I took a whole month off school and work for winter break this year. I took the first week as a vacation, taking Hannah on a cruise. The rest was like running a marathon to get stuff done that had been on my to-do list for too long. I pressure cleaned my drive way myself. I painted every white surface in my house (doors/baseboards), including a stool. I organized my office. I had a bathroom remodeled, which I painted. And the list goes on.
I have not gone on a date since the last post. But I have had a couple of "interests", where there was chemistry, but not bite. I really haven't had time for a relationship. In fact, I didn't really even crave for it till my winter break. I guess now I see that I'm starting my last semester. It is like my life is finally going to settle down, at least I hope. I plan to take the summer off to spend with Hannah, and then look for a job. As the new year started, I just had this feeling that this year was going to be different. I feel like a new chapter will begin with graduation. God has placed a new desire in my heart.
I like my life as it is, as a single mom. However, I feel like it would be nice to share the load with someone. I would love to one day see myself as a "help-mate" as God intended a wife. Of course, I also desire companionship. I enjoy my alone time, but I will soon have more evenings to myself without having classes. As it is now, Hannah is away 3 nights per week, 2 of those nights I spend in class.
At the same time, I am so thankful for the life God has blessed me with. Hannah is such a joy to me, my companion. She is my "mini-ME" in so many ways! We have similar interests and enjoy spending time together. But there is something to be said for having an adult companion to share time and interests with. We shall see...