Wednesday, January 23, 2013

It's A New Year 2013

It has been too long since my last blog 9 months ago.  Life has gotten much more complicated now that I started internship.  I don't even have time to date, let alone write a blog.  I am a senior now in grad school.  I graduate in 4 months!!!  I do hope that with school over life will be less complicated.  It is really hard being a single mom, grad student, home owner.  I get so tired with all I must accomplish just to maintain my life.  Currently, I work at my internship site 3 days per week for 5-6 hrs per day.  I have class 2 nights per week.  I pick up Hannah from school at 3 pm almost every day.  Her dad has her 3 nights per week, but he doesn't get home till around 7pm.  Sometimes I can drop her off with someone around 5pm, so I can have a little of an evening to myself.  He has her 2 whole days per month, since I have her every Sunday.  This is to just give an idea of my schedule.  In all that I must fit in taking care of my yard, my house, fixing problems in my house, homework, grocery shopping, other shopping, etc.  When Hannah has a holiday, she stays with me almost always.  When she has an event at school, I am there.  I often feel like I am constantly on the go.  Thankfully, I am good at multitasking.  I can get a lot done in a little time.  I am very motivated and can endure a lot.

I took a whole month off school and work for winter break this year.  I took the first week as a vacation, taking Hannah on a cruise.  The rest was like running a marathon to get stuff done that had been on my to-do list for too long.  I pressure cleaned my drive way myself.  I painted every white surface in my house (doors/baseboards), including a stool.  I organized my office.  I had a bathroom remodeled, which I painted.  And the list goes on.

I have not gone on a date since the last post.  But I have had a couple of "interests", where there was chemistry, but not bite.  I really haven't had time for a relationship.  In fact, I didn't really even crave for it till my winter break.  I guess now I see that I'm starting my last semester.  It is like my life is finally going to settle down, at least I hope.  I plan to take the summer off to spend with Hannah, and then look for a job.  As the new year started, I just had this feeling that this year was going to be different.  I feel like a new chapter will begin with graduation.  God has placed a new desire in my heart.

I like my life as it is, as a single mom.  However, I feel like it would be nice to share the load with someone.  I would love to one day see myself as a "help-mate" as God intended a wife.  Of course, I also desire companionship.  I enjoy my alone time, but I will soon have more evenings to myself without having classes.  As it is now, Hannah is away 3 nights per week, 2 of those nights I spend in class.

At the same time, I am so thankful for the life God has blessed me with.  Hannah is such a joy to me, my companion.  She is my "mini-ME" in so many ways!  We have similar interests and enjoy spending time together.  But there is something to be said for having an adult companion to share time and interests with.  We shall see...

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