Monday, March 29, 2010

One Week to Go

The date has been set for our final hour. The divorce will be official on April 6th. How do I feel? I think denial for now. I just would rather not think about it. I choose to focus on the excitement of starting over, getting another chance for happiness.

In the meantime, my X is still not speaking to me. But as long as he's good with our daughter, I try not to let it bother me. If we can't stay married, why try to be friends. I must learn to let a lot of things go. He's no longer my husband. This gives me the right to not let his quirks concern me.

In a way I'm happy that the divorce is only taking about 2 months to complete. I just want to be able to move on. I just want to close this whole chapter of my life, a chapter of misery. My "family" is now redefined as me, Hannah, Sasha (dog) and Angel (cat). My home is full of estrogen, and I like it that way.

I was never allowed to have pets with my X. I forgot how much joy animals bring. I am never alone! Last week, Hannah and I had a Disney vacation for spring break, and we brought Sasha and Angel with us. They are quite a pair. There was no way I could separate them. They did great! I would have missed them terribly if we had left them. God truly blessed me with two furry angels.

1 comment:

  1. it will be such a relief!! I hope that in time you find a way to be 'friendly' and I think in time you will...its not an easy part of this, but eventually you will need to discuss your daughter!! BUT, its early are right! His quirks are no longer your problem, but it might take time for them to stop affecting you!!