The date has been set for our final hour. The divorce will be official on April 6th. How do I feel? I think denial for now. I just would rather not think about it. I choose to focus on the excitement of starting over, getting another chance for happiness.
In the meantime, my X is still not speaking to me. But as long as he's good with our daughter, I try not to let it bother me. If we can't stay married, why try to be friends. I must learn to let a lot of things go. He's no longer my husband. This gives me the right to not let his quirks concern me.
In a way I'm happy that the divorce is only taking about 2 months to complete. I just want to be able to move on. I just want to close this whole chapter of my life, a chapter of misery. My "family" is now redefined as me, Hannah, Sasha (dog) and Angel (cat). My home is full of estrogen, and I like it that way.
I was never allowed to have pets with my X. I forgot how much joy animals bring. I am never alone! Last week, Hannah and I had a Disney vacation for spring break, and we brought Sasha and Angel with us. They are quite a pair. There was no way I could separate them. They did great! I would have missed them terribly if we had left them. God truly blessed me with two furry angels.