Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Stigma

When I enter a crowd of strangers now, I feel different. I feel like I need to explain myself, like I owe it to them to tell them I’m divorced. Why does this have to define me? Then after telling them I’m recently single, I feel the need to explain why, so they don’t think I just left him for a lack of happiness. For that would not be a reason for me to seek divorce. There are very few reasons divorce is acceptable in God’s eyes, and that’s more important than my happiness.


I visited a Single’s Bible Study the other night at a different church for the first time. I love to church hop. You meet more people that way! I’ve been praying that God would keep interesting men far from me until I’m ready. Well, He sure came through! All that was there were divorced women. I think its better that way, no temptation. Besides, the reason for going was to meet other woman like myself. But…for some reason, I feel the need to get away from people like myself, at the same time. How confusing is that? I want to get to a place where I don’t have to talk about being divorced. I just want to feel normal again. Why do I feel the need to explain myself? I hope that will pass with time.

3 comments:

  1. OH MY GOSH! I so get this!!!!! I did that and felt that! to some degree I still do that..I used to need to make sure they knew WHY I was single and that it was NOT my choice!!:)..could so relate to this!!!

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  2. Great....so this isn't going to change???

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  3. Thank you for sharing this, every divorced women or even women who contemplated divorce has felt this way. For some reason I feel that it is 100% my fault that things went the wrong path and have difficulty forgiving myself.

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